Nearing the end of June? Already? What has happened to the weeks?
Well, I know how the time has been spent. A lot of it in groundhog day... waking up to the same. I continue though, to desperately try to find the balance between the fast paced necessary activities that consume life, and the things that enable us (me) to breathe, to be still, to listen.
So what has happened? David had a birthday. Nicholas has played some outstanding football. He faced one of his biggest fears and gave a speech at school to stand for SRC. He didn't get a spot on the SRC but I am as proud as I can be, because he chose to do something that makes him anxious.
Audrey is doing a great job at her reading and writing. She I growing up quickly, but loves Rainbow Magic fairy books, her Tinkerbelle and My Little Ponies. She loves our "coffee time".
Maggie is growing. She is talking and has a number of new words every time I take the time to stop and notice. She has a lisp. She still sleeps beside me at night. I need to stop that soon, so that I can sleep...
I have finished Trimester 1 at university. Now I sit waiting for my grades. I have moved offices. So modern! Sensor lighting, great coffee close by, lovely modern, clean bathrooms (sorry West Block).
Probably the biggest change for me is that I have left my job. A job that I have enjoyed a lot. I had spent fifteen years doing something that made going to work an enjoyable thing, for a long time. But things were changing, nothing that needs detail here, but I had done everything there was to do. And a change is good, right? Day one my boss asked if I wanted to go to Melbourne. Yes please.
I think about this space. The reason behind my keeping it remains the same. To remember. I anticipate the next trimester, not looking forward to the demands of study. Two units remain and it will be over, but to be honest, that road looks long from where I am right now.
If I list the small things, the simple things that bring me pleasure, they would be a good flat white. No sugar, no froth. A striking journal - I love notebooks. I have too many that I have not written in. Aesop products... Seeing the mountains - something that gives me pleasure that I feel and notice immediately. My family. My kids, and the grace they show to me everyday when I feel I fail.
An early night, something that never seems to come. ;)
