2016 was crazy-hectic. And I was caught up in it. Just trying to get through, but in reality I was like a mouse on a wheel, round and round but not going anywhere.
David's work is demanding. This year I would like to be more supportive. Nicholas is going into year 6, and preparing for high school. This year I want to walk every step with him. Audrey is in year 3 and also needs to step up to new learning expectations. Maggie has started the year in the junior preschool room of her child care.
Me? Who knows. I am in a job that does not satisfy me in anyway - other than I show up and get paid, so I can pay the bills. So I have regrets, leaving a job but on the other hand, this will also enable me (I hope) to be the support and the parent I need to be. I know there are parts of these jobs that will be a challenge, but I want to make a difference in my family, and be the best that I can be for those I love.
To be that, I also know that I need to give myself a little self care. What will this be? Reading, pleasure in the simple things and ensuring I am mindful of all around me, including the choices I make.
This year I read more than I have in a long time.
My list is:
Still Alice by Lisa Genova
The Light Between Oceans by M L Stedman
The Girl on the Train by Paula Hawkins
Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone by J K Rowling
The Lady In Gold by Anne-Marie O'Connor
The Wife Drought by Annabel Crabb
La Rose by Louise Erdrich
Elephant Moon by John Sweeney
The Days of Abandonment by Elena Ferante
Housekeeping by Marilynne Robinson (audio)La Rose by Louise Erdrich
Elephant Moon by John Sweeney
The Days of Abandonment by Elena Ferante
The Good People by Hannah Kent
I did say Amen to Annabel Crabb: "so long 2016. Don't trip over on your way out". While I say I am not focused on New Years Resolutions, so many events during 2016 have made me want to think more about simple things, choosing less in order to really have more. And for this reason I think of this Ted Talk on Gratitude. My we all learn to be MORE GRATEFUL.