I have changed my blog settings so I can see the whole frame in youtube clips. Perhaps I worry too much. I just like everything in its place.
The past week was a rollercoaster ride. When I thought I was despairing of any hope, I read this post. I am surprised the way Ann often posts something that speaks right to where I am in my life. Without all the horrible details of the cranky mum I have been, I stop to think about how much what I am feeling shows on my face in the day. How much my frustration can easily escape my lips. Again i endeavour to do better, be better. i'll am grateful for her post as it enabled me to step back and take a moment to breathe. Even today, when i check, she continues to speak my heart here.
In the days when things were less rocky I escaped a little with Jane Eyre - a 2006 adaptation that mum lent me. As I discovered earlier this year with Wuthering Heights, finally there is an adaptation worthy. Because youtube can now be seen properly, here is the end scene.
I am now under pressure to finish the book before Bronte-along begins Wuthering Heights, which will be fun as it is a book that made a big impression on me. Mum has spoilt me over the past couple of weeks with the Orsen Wells adaptation of Jane Eyre, and the Shop Around the Corner (the movie 'You've Got Mail' was based on) so I have enjoyed 1930's-40's cinema. :)
Tonight I am going to be productive and get my ironing done, while listening to the last hour of an audio book. Then I am ready to start a new week, fresh of mistakes.
April 18, 2010
April 17, 2010
i miss Silent Witness!!
(and i wish i knew how to change the margins in blogger so it stops cutting youtube clips in half!)
April 13, 2010
you can't have too much fun
yesterday David took Nicholas and Audrey to the circus. i spoke to them on the phone after and i don't think i have ever heard Nicholas speak so quickly or excitedly. they loved it - the lions, the clowns, the trapeze... and Audrey, who is a fussy little eater, ate a whole dagwood dog! now we know what will work, deepfried food and tomato sauce! :)
April 10, 2010
museums
today was an unusual one. various activities took the family apart from each other for a few hours this morning. Nicholas had a friends birthday party. at the dinosaur museum, so he was very excited. David took him along, but he preferred to wheel himself around, which is quite cute. 
it inspired him to turn the family room into his own dinosaur museum, and i had to go on a tour, so took my camera. :) 
i had registered to attend the 30th anniversary of interpretation at Lanyon Homestead. mum and dad looked after Audrey for me, so she was able to spend a bit of time helping her grandparents in the garden.
i think i have mentioned Lanyon a few times in this blog. i really should have started using tags earlier... i first volunteered as a guide at Lanyon Homestead when i was 15. i did a year 10 school assignment on Lanyon, and later in university wrote a conservation plan on the family cemetery. i was interested to learn today that the historic houses trust has funding to do some work on the cemetery, which is located on the working property, surrounding the homestead. there were three speakers on the topic of local history in a national context, a presentation on the restoration work undertaken at lanyon and from a much loved former curator, a talk on 30 years of the house museum. - she was very supprotive of my interests in history, curatorship and museum management when i was younger. while i was at university i worked with her (this time paid work) in various historic house museums. it was nice that she remembered me today - even though it was (gulp) over 20 years since we firat met. when i first arrived we had a cup of tea and a danish. the perfect setting, and a blissful couple of hours on my own - even if it was listening to lectures. i even had some time to read a book. see how easy i am to please?!
as David had the camera, pictures can be seen on the Lanyon website.
it inspired him to turn the family room into his own dinosaur museum, and i had to go on a tour, so took my camera. :) i had registered to attend the 30th anniversary of interpretation at Lanyon Homestead. mum and dad looked after Audrey for me, so she was able to spend a bit of time helping her grandparents in the garden.i think i have mentioned Lanyon a few times in this blog. i really should have started using tags earlier... i first volunteered as a guide at Lanyon Homestead when i was 15. i did a year 10 school assignment on Lanyon, and later in university wrote a conservation plan on the family cemetery. i was interested to learn today that the historic houses trust has funding to do some work on the cemetery, which is located on the working property, surrounding the homestead. there were three speakers on the topic of local history in a national context, a presentation on the restoration work undertaken at lanyon and from a much loved former curator, a talk on 30 years of the house museum. - she was very supprotive of my interests in history, curatorship and museum management when i was younger. while i was at university i worked with her (this time paid work) in various historic house museums. it was nice that she remembered me today - even though it was (gulp) over 20 years since we firat met. when i first arrived we had a cup of tea and a danish. the perfect setting, and a blissful couple of hours on my own - even if it was listening to lectures. i even had some time to read a book. see how easy i am to please?!
as David had the camera, pictures can be seen on the Lanyon website.
April 8, 2010
finding joy
Nicholas had his x-ray today and his femur is moving back into place, so he won't need surgery ~ a relief for me. his dinosaur books are keeping him occupied today.
while we were home waiting, Audrey collected some eggs. she also picked a "flower". even though she still had bed hair, i thought she looked cute. 
She brought her family and friends so much happiness during her short life and she loved to share some of the things that brought her happiness through her writing. She was loving, warm, wonderful and generous and she will be missed by many.
i wondered what had happened to her, and clicked on the link to her obituary. it told of an enchanted life - writing, travel, gardens and love. then i read the last sentence:
She always counted herself lucky to have been able to make a career from writing about what she loved. In recent weeks, however, she had been suffering from an extreme depression; she took her own life last Thursday.
She is survived by her husband and their young daughter, Mary.
i was shocked. i went back and read the last entry she wrote, and her last column. this has lingered in my mind over the past few days. i wonder how someone can feel so low, so discouraged, so despondent and hopeless that they could take their own life? when i saw that she left a husband and a 5 year old daughter i found it even more difficult to comprehend. such a tragedy. reading her past articles in the London Times, even after only a few days of coming across her writings, i find it hard to believe that someone was here one moment and now although i read their words, they are gone.
last night our bible study was on joy. it saddens me that there are people who know no joy. i am grateful that i have a hope, and that even in times when i have been low, i have my faith and a husband and children who inspire me and whom I love dearly.
while we were home waiting, Audrey collected some eggs. she also picked a "flower". even though she still had bed hair, i thought she looked cute. we watered our small vegetable garden. i planted the cabbage, spinach, beetroot and broccoli on the last weekend before it is apparently "too late". my fingers are crossed.
yesterday i made a cross between SouleMama's gratitude journal, and the drawing wallet that i made for the kids. now i will have something to keep cards, notes and stamps in. so i won't have an excuse whenever i think "i should send a card!" 
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last week i happened upon an entry in a blog, which was just lovely. it was about gardening. it was about a simpler approach to life. all that appeals to me. i was enjoying reading random entries, looking at pictures when i came to the last entry, from the author’s husband:
She brought her family and friends so much happiness during her short life and she loved to share some of the things that brought her happiness through her writing. She was loving, warm, wonderful and generous and she will be missed by many.
i wondered what had happened to her, and clicked on the link to her obituary. it told of an enchanted life - writing, travel, gardens and love. then i read the last sentence:
She always counted herself lucky to have been able to make a career from writing about what she loved. In recent weeks, however, she had been suffering from an extreme depression; she took her own life last Thursday.
She is survived by her husband and their young daughter, Mary.
i was shocked. i went back and read the last entry she wrote, and her last column. this has lingered in my mind over the past few days. i wonder how someone can feel so low, so discouraged, so despondent and hopeless that they could take their own life? when i saw that she left a husband and a 5 year old daughter i found it even more difficult to comprehend. such a tragedy. reading her past articles in the London Times, even after only a few days of coming across her writings, i find it hard to believe that someone was here one moment and now although i read their words, they are gone.
last night our bible study was on joy. it saddens me that there are people who know no joy. i am grateful that i have a hope, and that even in times when i have been low, i have my faith and a husband and children who inspire me and whom I love dearly.
April 6, 2010
He is Risen
it didn't quite feel like Easter this year... we had a long long weekend. it was an enjoyable one, but a busy one. David's mum had her 60th birthday on Saturday night, which David and his cousin catered for. that meant David was out of the picture for Friday and Saturday. on Sunday there was an early lunch with relatives who had travelled some distance to be here, which meant we didn't attend a service on Easter Sunday. and another lunch was held yesterday to welcome a cousin from overseas, who is visiting briefly. Dave's uncle from the farm invited us to visit any time. i am hoping as soon as the semester is over we can get away for a long weekend. then we will return at shearing time, in September.
in the morning Nicholas asked to have an Easter egg hunt, with the chocolate they had received from friends and family. we now have a cupboard full of chocolate, as my kids love receiving eggs, and especially enjoy finding them, but don't seem interested in eating them! 
tomorrow will be back to work - i can't imagine what has built up over the past few days, and with three staff currently overseas i dread what might be waiting for me!
April 2, 2010
what's a girl to do?
this morning we sat outside in the glorious sunshine. Nicholas wanted to take some photos with my camera. he randomly pointed the camera in all directions and kept clicking away... i was quite impressed. here are some of his shots: 
~ his foot
~ his dad
~a butterfly on his teacup 
~the kids cubby house
we have a busy weekend ahead of us - David's mum is having her 60th birthday party this weekend, so there are lots of family members coming into town. before all the activity begins though we thought we'd take the kids for a walk around the local lake. it was wonderful just to take a bit of time out to be together.
Audrey really wanted to give her big brother a push! 
i've really noticed she seems to have "grown up" just a bit more in the past week. she has taken to putting all of her soft toys in her little pram and pushing them around the house. 
she talks to them as she sits them down on chairs, or makes them tea. 
i have to admit it is cute seeing her do those little "girl things".
~the kids cubby house ~me reading
we have a busy weekend ahead of us - David's mum is having her 60th birthday party this weekend, so there are lots of family members coming into town. before all the activity begins though we thought we'd take the kids for a walk around the local lake. it was wonderful just to take a bit of time out to be together.Audrey really wanted to give her big brother a push! i've really noticed she seems to have "grown up" just a bit more in the past week. she has taken to putting all of her soft toys in her little pram and pushing them around the house. she talks to them as she sits them down on chairs, or makes them tea. i have to admit it is cute seeing her do those little "girl things". she is still a scally wag though - she loves collecting the eggs while Nicholas is indisposed.
i can see i'm going to have to have a roster for the chore when he is better!
i can see i'm going to have to have a roster for the chore when he is better!the other day i was taking pictures and asked her to smile for me. she came and sat in front of me and did her first official "pose"
she loves twisting the swing until she is dizzy.
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