confessions

i should be doing the dishes. i have been working overtime to ensure the house stays "tidy". i won't say spotless, because that would just be silly.
but instead of doing dishes i did the "Who do you end up with in a Jane Austen novel?" quiz.
Intensely romantic, a lover of music, and completely devoted to making you happy, you're suited for Colonel Brandon. He has a tragic history concerning love, but couldn't help but fall for you, your pretty smile and your enthusiasm for life. Maybe he was a little older than you were looking for, and maybe he didn't seem too exciting at first glance, so you might have overlooked him in the beginning, but when you got to know him you found out that the tall, dark and romantic were your thing after all. Don't judge books by their covers! He'll play you melancholy piano music, read you poetry and go on long walks in the moonlight. Colonel Brandon is your mysterious, romantic match. Have fun! Income: 2000 pounds/year (approx. 1,200,000 today).
the quiz was actually on facebook. i have a confession to make - i am a boring facebooker (or whatever the term may be). i don't update my status, i don't (or rarely) write on walls. the only people i have actively sought out are my two best friends from the third grade. and it is lovely catching up with them. and then a dear friend, possibly the kindest and gentlest person i know, found me.
but a Jane Austen quiz? that tempts me. especially if i should be doing housework.
i am tired. i am nervous about the next month and what it may bring. my work is SO busy at the moment, and today the realisation of my manager, that the three full time staff members in my workplace will be away for over a month gave me chills. i tentatively approached him. "i could work full time if you need me to??" am i insane? obviously i am, as he replied: "that WOULD really help." before i knew it the papers were signed.
gulp. five days per week, shuffling children to willing (gracious, kind, patient, so good) family members... searching my heart for a double dose of patience as i will my children to a quick dinner and early bedtime each night, only to do it again and again and again. extra responsibility, a larger managerial role... clearly i AM insane. (it is only for a month i remind myself). so a Jane Austen quiz? yes please!

but it is not all woe - one of those colleagues who will be away has given David and i her theatre tickets. yay Bell Shakespeare! here we come. and in mid November i will be found with my family, sitting on the beach. bring it on.