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a couple of days ago i posted a little about how i have been feeling the past couple of weeks. i go through cycles of high and low like a lot of people. the lows are manageable, and usually bought on by our ridiculously hectic lifestyle and my aching for a simpler one. and probably by the ridiculously high expectations i have set myself of motherhood!

anyway, this morning i read this post, and that seems to be exactly where i am at -it seems now more than ever. i like this blog - often what Ann says resonates somewhere in my heart with my day to day life. "I remember it again: In the midst of the ugly, there's always a window through to the joy beauty." i need to look through the window. to remember that "our Creator God passionately wraps each moment different but He's actually the most predictable of gift givers. God gives only one kind of gift: All is for joy."

i got to do a bit of soul searching in the quiet hours of the evenings while David was away fishing. and after having such a lovely birthday, feeling utterly spoilt, David came home with my favourite bread from a cafe in Mogo. it is filled with fruit: figs, apricots... it is divine. AND he saw a patchwork shop in Moruya and bought me another metre of fabric. i am so impressed that he knows the name of the line of fabric i like! i am sure his fishing companion was less than impressed to be going into a fabric store but that's my husband, he takes note of details, and he remembers.

Nicholas seems quite content lying on the lounge watching ABC. i’m sure it won’t last for 5 weeks though! he just had an ice block, and his hands are cold, so he said “maybe we could have a cup of tea and that would warm them up!”

yes, Audrey is with Dave’s mum, so having one child gone and another confined to the lounge gives me time for a cup of tea and surfing the net!
a woman i work with went home and has lent Nicholas and i a bag full of wonderful children's books. i love books!

i plan to finish the stitching on the quilt i have been making today, and then will have to get the wadding and backing and i can start the hand quilting process!! today i will also dig the zucchini out of the garden. we only have days left to get the cabbage, broccoli and spinach in! a modest winter vegetable garden. so, as Nicholas says when we have come up with a plan, "let's get cracking!"

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thanks to everyone for their prayers and well wishes for Nicholas - last night i went to bed a little sad that i am not going to hear his feet running down the hallway at 3am, climbing into my bed and wrapping his arms around my neck, saying "i love you mama!" in 5 weeks he may learn to sleep all night in his own bed... :(