This video has gone viral on the net the past couple of days. it is simply beautiful and I wanted to remember it, so have posted it here. Anything about babies has me crying these days, this more than any.
Ward Miles - First Year from BenjaminScot on Vimeo.
November 25, 2013
November 23, 2013
Saturday
Coffee with David (and Maggie) at Kindle this week.
Sadly, I realise how much Maggie is growing and how few photographs I have of me with her. As David has been otherwise occupied with university or work, I got our small camera and put the kids in charge of getting some pictures.
Sadly, I realise how much Maggie is growing and how few photographs I have of me with her. As David has been otherwise occupied with university or work, I got our small camera and put the kids in charge of getting some pictures.
November 20, 2013
Wednesday
I desperately want to do some crafting. Of any kind, but particularly the needle and thread variety. I tried to find a cross stitch I started a while ago, as I thought this would be something easy to keep in a basket in the corner. I can then pull it out whenever I have a few spare moments. but really, I don't see that happening... the logical choice would be the Princess and the Pea stitchery I started last year for Audrey. maybe if I do a bit each night it can be ready for Christmas. But I won't put myself under that pressure. :)
I have Maggie's mat to sew, as well as a Christmas Stocking that I have started gathering the fabric for.
Here is a quilt a friend of David's mothers' did for Maggie. I have never met the woman - I am touched by the kindness of strangers. I am not one to usually like bright, bold colours, but this quilt is lovely.
Maggie is 3 months old today!
I have Maggie's mat to sew, as well as a Christmas Stocking that I have started gathering the fabric for.
Here is a quilt a friend of David's mothers' did for Maggie. I have never met the woman - I am touched by the kindness of strangers. I am not one to usually like bright, bold colours, but this quilt is lovely.
Maggie is 3 months old today!
and just so I can keep a record of it, something beautiful here. (I so wish I was in Spain though!!)
November 11, 2013
Monday
First up, this is not a "pity me" post. It is just an honest look at where things are at for me right now and I want to record it.
I watched this TED talk last week. I needed to hear it. Then Josh posted the same thing on Facebook.
I saw a link to this, and did not trust myself to open it for a couple of days. I don't need to feed my mother guilt! But it is so true. We mums can be so hard on ourselves. It doesn't take much for me to cry these days. Being a mother is the most amazing, emotional roller coaster ride in life. And I wouldn't want to miss it for anything.
I mentioned in my last post the tears that fell as I watched Maggie looking up at me while doctors kept searching for a place in her tiny veins to place a needle.
On Saturday a hospital volunteer came and asked me if I'd like her to sit with Maggie while I went for a walk or had a coffee. I had just ventured away from her bedside for the first time, rushing down the lift to buy a magazine, then straight back up to the fourth floor. I didn't want to be too far away from her. I made myself sit in the cafeteria and have a real coffee while I look at the Country Style Christmas magazine. Of course no sooner did I order my coffee than I was anxious to drink it quickly and get back upstairs. I gave myself about 15 minutes down there though. As I sat and looked at people around me, I felt the tears coming to my eyes again. I. Just. Felt. Extremely. Tired. (What mum doesn't?) I didn't want to cry in public.
I am grateful we are home and that Maggie is well. I am grateful for the care we were both given while in hospital. (If ever that ER nurse, Greg, reads this, thank you for telling those doctors what to do).
Lately I have thought of my grandmother. I imagine what it would be like if I went back in time and saw her with her five children, I think I know exactly what I would see. A woman who loved them dearly and cared for them the best that she could. In the season of motherhood, something I was only just embarking on when my grandmother passed away, I wish I could talk to her about her experience navigating this path... :)
Tomorrow, Audrey is speaking at assembly. I am proud of this girl I love her just the way she is. :)
I watched this TED talk last week. I needed to hear it. Then Josh posted the same thing on Facebook.
I saw a link to this, and did not trust myself to open it for a couple of days. I don't need to feed my mother guilt! But it is so true. We mums can be so hard on ourselves. It doesn't take much for me to cry these days. Being a mother is the most amazing, emotional roller coaster ride in life. And I wouldn't want to miss it for anything.
I mentioned in my last post the tears that fell as I watched Maggie looking up at me while doctors kept searching for a place in her tiny veins to place a needle.
On Saturday a hospital volunteer came and asked me if I'd like her to sit with Maggie while I went for a walk or had a coffee. I had just ventured away from her bedside for the first time, rushing down the lift to buy a magazine, then straight back up to the fourth floor. I didn't want to be too far away from her. I made myself sit in the cafeteria and have a real coffee while I look at the Country Style Christmas magazine. Of course no sooner did I order my coffee than I was anxious to drink it quickly and get back upstairs. I gave myself about 15 minutes down there though. As I sat and looked at people around me, I felt the tears coming to my eyes again. I. Just. Felt. Extremely. Tired. (What mum doesn't?) I didn't want to cry in public.
I am grateful we are home and that Maggie is well. I am grateful for the care we were both given while in hospital. (If ever that ER nurse, Greg, reads this, thank you for telling those doctors what to do).
Lately I have thought of my grandmother. I imagine what it would be like if I went back in time and saw her with her five children, I think I know exactly what I would see. A woman who loved them dearly and cared for them the best that she could. In the season of motherhood, something I was only just embarking on when my grandmother passed away, I wish I could talk to her about her experience navigating this path... :)
Tomorrow, Audrey is speaking at assembly. I am proud of this girl I love her just the way she is. :)
November 9, 2013
Friday
Two hours waiting in the Emergency Department. I feel confident all is well. Just an unusually high temperature for Maggie. An opportunity to people watch. and the ER provides an eclectic group of people to watch.
******
So I began this post at three o'clock yesterday. Here I am in the paediatrics ward at the hospital. Without causing alarm or being dramatic, at 11 weeks old they decided Maggie was too little to be getting a 39 degree temperature. After 6 hours in the ER a bed was finally made available. Horrible moments for me- the SIX attempts to find a vein in Maggie's little arm while in ER. Her screaming, eyes filled with tears looking directly at me broke my heart. And now the suggestion by dr's to do a lumber punch to rule out meningitis. Still waiting on that decision...
But I am grateful for a G.P, paediatrician and nurse, all from our church, caring for Maggie or simply coming in to cuddle her and bring me juice. Thankful for David, picking up the slack at home- piano, homework, ballet.... and packing Maggie and I a hospital bag with everything we might need!
******
So I began this post at three o'clock yesterday. Here I am in the paediatrics ward at the hospital. Without causing alarm or being dramatic, at 11 weeks old they decided Maggie was too little to be getting a 39 degree temperature. After 6 hours in the ER a bed was finally made available. Horrible moments for me- the SIX attempts to find a vein in Maggie's little arm while in ER. Her screaming, eyes filled with tears looking directly at me broke my heart. And now the suggestion by dr's to do a lumber punch to rule out meningitis. Still waiting on that decision...
But I am grateful for a G.P, paediatrician and nurse, all from our church, caring for Maggie or simply coming in to cuddle her and bring me juice. Thankful for David, picking up the slack at home- piano, homework, ballet.... and packing Maggie and I a hospital bag with everything we might need!
October 23, 2013
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